Thursday, December 28, 2006

Doubting Thomas

What will be left when I've drawn my last breath?
Besides the folks I've met and the folks who know me?
Will I discover the soul saving love or just the dirt of all the men who've known me?
I'm a doubting Thomas.
I took the promise.
I do not feel the same.
Oh Me of little faith
...
Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face, then I beg to be spared 'cause I'm a coward.
If there's a Master of Death I bet he's holding his breath because I show the blind and tell the deaf about His power.
I'm a doubting Thomas
I can't keep my promises 'cause I don't know what's safe.
I can't keep my promises.
Oh Me of little faith.
...
Can I be used to help others find Truth when I'm scared that I'll find proof that its a lie?
Can I be lead down the trail dropping bread crumbs to prove I'm not ready to die.

Please give me time to decipher the signs.
Please forgive me for time that I've wasted.

I'm a doubting Thomas.
I'll take your promise.
Though I know nothing's safe.

Oh Me of little faith.
Oh me of little faith.

~Nickel Creek

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Consider: the measure of a (hu)man

Hannah's theory of Human Doing:

Humanity's worth lies in her/his ablity to DO. Value, honor, and promotion are all based on the ability to accomplish deeds, tasks, work. Kudos are given according to amounts of work. The Human Doing places all passion into doing something the right way. This Human Doing measures others by their ability to accomplish large amounts of work. Competition is key.
This Human Doing gets old, breaks a leg, and capacity to DO is limited. Human Doing's value decreases. Kudos cease to be given, because production has ceased...stopped DOING. This Human DOING is worthless, because DOING has ceased.

Hannah's theory of Human Being:

Humanity's worth lies in ability to exist. Value, honor and promotion are all based on how the existence is sustained and maintained. HOW the work, deeds, and tasks are accomplished. Kudos are given based on this Human Beings character during existence. The Human Being places all passion into being the right person. The Human Being measures others by their BEING character.
This Human Being gets old, breaks a leg, and his/her capacity to be is NOT limited. His/her value does NOT decrease. Kudoes do NOT cease unless the BEING fails to "be" with stellar character. This Human BEING is ABLE to live a worthwhile life, because HUMANITY CANNOT HELP BUT BE.

Consider: Try to understand worth based on someone's existance and NOT on their accomplishments. It humbles the rich and raises the poor. DOING and BEING are both existences, which require Divine Intervention. Why? Because Old Age and Death eventually remove Doing and Being from being an option.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Not Afraid Anymore

I'm not afraid anymore. I can talk about my faith now without the fear of being stoned at UMich. Initially I was scared because there is so much verbal hate conversation about Christians/Catholics who would put perameters around behavior. What is law? What is morality? "The church can't dictate my morality!!!"

I was afraid, because I thought if I spoke truth I would be shunned. The process of going through persecution has somehow transformed my fear into a tool. It's like that verse, "In our weakness He is made strong." I feel a change in my faith, over the last few weeks. I'm not afraid to let someone hear me talking about Christ, and yet I know I have so much room for change. I pray that He will continue to make me unashamed of His Gospel. My faith is a work in progress that is for sure. I hope that somehow the Lord will use my experiences here for his purpose.

People still hate Religion. They always will. In policy conversations there are many who curse Christianity.
They defy rules and laws, which restrict behavior in which they want to participate.


What is the cost of our rebellion? What is the risk? Why do we need You Lord?
Lessons learned.
1. Cancer/Aids-disease
2. War
3. Lonliness
4. Abandonment
5. Alcoholism
6. Families Torn

Lord why do we reject you? Why do we want freedom from your laws, which protect us? Why do your own people distort your Word? God change our hearts, help us to live and teach Your Word with love and humility, so that we do not, in our sin, turn people away from You. God draw your people to love without pretense of getting people to follow. Help us not to have checkboxes beside the names of our friends who do not you. Let our quest to love not be an effort to convert poeple, but simply to love them as you do. Let Your love lead and guide our love for others.