I don't want it.

At what point do you tell your friends, peers, classmates, who hate christians...that you are one?
Do you write it in a paper and hope the professor will bring it up so that you will finally be able to declare..."yes, i love Jesus!" I don't care if you reject me because of it? Do you write about how God led you...on a class site? do you tell people you can't participate in a group project because you teach Sunday school?

I hate the Christian stigma here.
Why am I so afraid to tell people that I am one? Fear? Fear is sick. I hate it. I don't want it.

I don't want that label of cheezy Christian. I don't want people to look at me through THAT lens...you know the one?
The lens that says that we hate on people who are different than us. It says that we hate on people who don't believe the same way we do.
God forbid we hate on anyone. BUT its true. My friends know its true because they have experienced hate from religious, right wing fanatics. Well I don't want it, OK? I don't like that lens!

You know what I do want? I want to love all my neighbors, muslim, gay, homeless, lesbian, bi, jewish, transgendered, rich, able bodied, etc. I want to love them the same, and never reject them. What have we done to Christianity? Why have we made it something scorned? How can we change it? I can do nothing. I won't tell people here that I am a Christian, I will tell them I follow Jesus.

Because through our faults "we" have made Christianity what we think it should be and not what Jesus made it. He made it a sanctuary for the outcasts; He made it a humbling place for the rich and the proud; He made it a freedom place for the bound.
Help us oh God to love our neighbors as ourselves. Teach us mercy, forgiveness and grace. Most of all God teach us humility.